Thursday, April 19, 2007


So, I woke up at 3:40 am this morning with a Panic Attack. It was about a 6 on the scale but then of course as I laid there trying to relax it reached about an 8. I had to get up and take an ativan, then get up again and take an aspirin (in case it really was a heart attack). By this time it is 4:30 am and I know I have to get up in a couple of hours, which makes me freak out more. I try to remember my Yoga chants to help me to relax and take my mind of the fact that I can not breathe and my heart is beating irregularly
But, of course I am so focused on my impending heart attack that I all that keeps going through my mind is ‘OM CHAKA LAKA’,
Which then makes me laugh, and then I can’t stop repeating it, even though I want to because this is a serious matter.

Finally, the ativan kicks in and I get to sleep a little and now I am at work looking like a crazy person. I already started sympathy crying because the receptionist here was missing her daughter. So, together with my PMS and not sleeping most of the night, it should be a real fun day!!

4 comments:

julie said...

Oh Denise - feel better and drink some herbal tea!

Karen Beth said...

Oh, bless your heart! Maybe you will be able to get some good rest tonight. I sure hope so!

Catherine said...

Is the day over yet?

Stacie said...

Denise,
I suffer from these blasted things myself. I had my gallbladder out 6 years ago, and have them ever since. I think it is my vagus nerve that gets irritated, and it causes my heart and breathing to act weird, which kicks off a panic attack. I feel for you. I hate them...and I seem to get them worse around 'that time of the month'. It is either that or peri-menopause. I just don't know anymore...sorry you have them too.