Wednesday, June 17, 2009


When you do things from your soul, you feel a river moving in you, a joy.
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Friday, June 05, 2009

rambling on Oprah

Not that I have anything against Oprah, but sometime she can be so ….i don’t know, unaware? is that the word I want? Anyway, Last night was a rerun of a show with the author of Beautiful boy and his son. During the interview the son said more than once that he had been ashamed of his behavior and his addiction. He was ashamed of many of the things he did during the time he was so deep into the drugs and alcohol. He knew that he was hurting his family but the shame and the addiction were so strong that he couldn’t stop.
So, then O asks him, If you knew you were hurting the people that loved you, why did you keep doing it? I am thinking really? O, did you not notice that one, he is young man still hurting. Two, he is an addict. Three, he was very deep in shame and Four, he is an ADDICT. I do not know the reason behind all the shame and his need to numb himself but, i do know that there is no easy way out.
Something that you would think she would understand. Hey, O, if you know that the food you consume causes you to gain weight and make you feel bad, why don’t you just control the intake.
Seriously, if it was that simple-"Hey, this is making me and everyone around me feel like shit-I guess I will just stop drinking, snorting coke, overeating, gambling, and obsessing"-we wouldn't need all the rehab centers and twelve step programs.
It was really amazing that she asked such questions.
Anyway, enough rambling about something I have no control over.

I understand that Oprah may have just made a mistake, but i felt really sad for the young man. He already was feeling so guilty and ashamed, i didn't see the need to make him feel worse. I am sure that was not the intention.