One of the saddest parts of depression for me is when the days get longer and I feel so much better. My mind and body feel more alive, I notice all kinds of things, my brain is going 100 miles an hour, I want to do stuff, things make more sense, I understand and try to work on the issues at hand and feel great about it… But, then I think to myself…is this just part of the cycle? The time of year where the days are longer and my depression goes to sleep for the summer??
Then I get a little sad, because I am starting to feel so good, but I don’t know if it is going to last or if it is just a trick…(I hate that feeling)
But, then I think maybe I am realizing this because I am getting better, you know…at least you have acknowledged the possibilities. See how well your therapy and acupuncture and sunshine and exercise are working…blah blah blah
I know, I know, just enjoy the moment, and be happy with this good feeling, go with it….
Believe me I want to …and that is the plan.
This was just a public service announcement to myself.